A Man Obsessed

It’s been 3 long months since we first broke up, and still Rocky refuses to go quietly into the night. I’m starting to realize that Rocky is not a man in love, but really a man obsessed and his obsession has taken him to new level of stupidity.

The Saint told me that Rocky brought him a beer Friday night and then bent his ear about me. Rocky asked the Saint to help him get me back, and if he was successful at getting us back together that he would pay him 2 THOUSAND dollars. I could not believe my ears, but this scheme is just so illogical that it has to be true. Rocky is definitely not the wisest man that I know, and it speaks true to his senselessness that he would think that he could buy me back and that he could think that the Saint would not tell me the truth.

Of course, the Saint is going to tell me the truth about the offer. The Saint even seriously tried to convince me to get back together with Rocky for about two days to get the money and split the two thousand dollars. I laughed at how excited the Saint was about the whole idea, but I didn’t even consider that offer for one minute. Rocky is a complete idiot and I can’t, in good conscience, take average of someone who lacks all common sense.

The End of This Tragic Love Story

I no longer need my mother’s advice about Rocky because the Saint put it all into perspective for me.

Last night, I told the Saint that I agreed to give Rocky another chance once his dicorce was final. The Saint laughed at first, because I even admitted outright that I was making a mistake. However, later that night the Saint came up to me and gave me a piece of his mind. At first, he appeared completely harmless as he danced up to me with a smile on his face, but within a few seconds that smile faded and the Saint was all about business. He said, “I’m upset with you for going back to him. I was so happy when you left him, because you were finally getting out of the mud. Now, you’re choosing to go back to the mud again!” He shook his head and continued, “Haven’t you learned yet that you can’t change a person? The man is a fuck-up, and always will be. You can do ten times better.”

As the Saint finished his rant, Rocky came up behind him, said hello, and shook his hand. Rocky had no idea that the Saint had just given him such a bad review, and the Saint didn’t let on either. The Saint just smiled shook his hand and went about his business, leaving me hopelessly confused about what to do with Rocky.

The Saint is completely right though, and in two minutes he told me very concisely what I needed to hear. It’s strange, because most everyone that I know (with the exception of 3 people) have been telling me that Rocky is bad for me. They go through dozens of negative traits that Rocky has, but I couldn’t seem to weigh those pros and cons very effectively because Rocky’s love for me would always win. I needed the muddy imagery of the Saint’s words. I needed to hear what Rocky is, and not what he has done, because I can forgive the mistakes that someone makes, but if you are a “fuck-up,” there is nothing I can do to fix that.

So everyone, all I have to do now is find a way to break the news to Rocky again. I’m not looking forward to this conversation, but I do feel a little relief now that I know how this dramatic love story ends. Rocky and I will never end up together, no way, no how!

The Break-Up Continues

This break-up seems to be a never-ending process, because Rocky is not taking “no” for an answer. I admit that I am partially to blame for not taking a firmer stance in this break-up, but as I’ve said before, I simply can not bring myself to dislike Rocky. I still see too much good in his heart, and I can’t simply throw him aside as if he never meant anything to me.

For a while there, I thought this break-up was really going to work. I told him that I wanted him to stop calling me and to stop bothering me at the club, and he managed to do that for about a week. However, he wasn’t able to resist himself on Friday, because he called me about 8 times and finally just showed up at my front door. Like a fool, I let him in to hear his story, and it was very dramatic one, like it always is.

His wife had already stolen his cell phone and all of his identification. Now, she withdrew all of the money they had in their bank account, leaving him destitute until he gets paid again. He said that he just deposited his most recent paycheck as well. The woman is pure evil. She’s lied to both Rocky and I about being pregnant and she even had to audacity the threaten me. I am seriously doubting all of the information that I’ve received from her. She can not be trusted.

Anyway, once Rocky finished his 10-minute horror story about his wife, he then proceeded to tell me over the next 2 hours, how none of these things really mattered to him. He didn’t come to my home to talk about his wife, he came because he just had to see me, because he needed me, because he wanted me back. He said that of all of the things that that woman destroyed in his life, the only thing that he can't bare to lose is me. He did more than cry about it. He quite literally sobbed over me the way most widows sob over a beloved husbands casket. His love for me is so heartbreakingly tragic that it inspires the romantic side of my heart that wants him back and silences all the logic in my brain that is saying that he is not worth my time.

I still don’t know what is right or wrong anymore, so I think that it’s time to bring in the big guns. I think that I must finally tell my mother the truth about what happened between Rocky and I. She met Rocky before and saw how happy he made me, and I think that she could quite possibly be the best judge of the situation. If she can get past all of Rocky’s errors and accept him as a son-in-law, then perhaps I will give Rocky another chance as soon as his divorce is final. However, if she says no, then I would have to agree with her decision. I’m afraid that I already know what she will say, but I’m still curious to get her answer anyway. As of right now, all she knows is that Rocky and I broke up for an unknown reason, and to tell you the truth she’s on Rocky’s side at the moment, thinking that I’m being a little too hard of him. I wonder how the tables will turn once she knows the whole ugly truth.