The End of This Tragic Love Story

I no longer need my mother’s advice about Rocky because the Saint put it all into perspective for me.

Last night, I told the Saint that I agreed to give Rocky another chance once his dicorce was final. The Saint laughed at first, because I even admitted outright that I was making a mistake. However, later that night the Saint came up to me and gave me a piece of his mind. At first, he appeared completely harmless as he danced up to me with a smile on his face, but within a few seconds that smile faded and the Saint was all about business. He said, “I’m upset with you for going back to him. I was so happy when you left him, because you were finally getting out of the mud. Now, you’re choosing to go back to the mud again!” He shook his head and continued, “Haven’t you learned yet that you can’t change a person? The man is a fuck-up, and always will be. You can do ten times better.”

As the Saint finished his rant, Rocky came up behind him, said hello, and shook his hand. Rocky had no idea that the Saint had just given him such a bad review, and the Saint didn’t let on either. The Saint just smiled shook his hand and went about his business, leaving me hopelessly confused about what to do with Rocky.

The Saint is completely right though, and in two minutes he told me very concisely what I needed to hear. It’s strange, because most everyone that I know (with the exception of 3 people) have been telling me that Rocky is bad for me. They go through dozens of negative traits that Rocky has, but I couldn’t seem to weigh those pros and cons very effectively because Rocky’s love for me would always win. I needed the muddy imagery of the Saint’s words. I needed to hear what Rocky is, and not what he has done, because I can forgive the mistakes that someone makes, but if you are a “fuck-up,” there is nothing I can do to fix that.

So everyone, all I have to do now is find a way to break the news to Rocky again. I’m not looking forward to this conversation, but I do feel a little relief now that I know how this dramatic love story ends. Rocky and I will never end up together, no way, no how!